The pictures say it all, I present Olivia's luncheon and tea party!

Happy Birthday!

Happy 5th Birthday my sweet Olivia. I cannot believe you are FIVE!



Happy ____ Birthday Mom!

I love you both, very much.

Tonight I had a nice visit with my parents and with my Grandparents. I realized three things tonight in the time we spent together.

1. Being Pregnant is always a miracle from God. Despite the severe morning sickness and depression, I need to step back and be grateful.

2. Whether this child is a boy or girl, the ultimate importance is for the baby to be healthy. How trivial it is to hope for a boy so he can play football, or for a girl to dress her up in bows. These are fun exciting things to hope for but talking with my Grandma about her daughter (my aunt) that recently passed away.... my Grandma simply said, you don't realize what you have got until its gone. So I basically got a strong feeling that as I continue through this pregnancy with a calm heart, a glad heart and gentle spirit. I must know this is a pure miracle inside of me, a little soul who met my Aunt in heaven and met my grandpa in heaven as well.

So as it is fun to hope for a boy or a girl (and we all do!) I realized today with the conversation with my Grandma that life is too short and too sweet then to want anything more than a pink healthy baby.

Halloween 2009

Halloween was so much fun this year, serious. Both kids were so excited to trick or treat. They would run to each house and when the door opened they would yell TRICK OR TREAT! Carson would then say "This is my sister Olivia, she's a witch and I'm the spider man." Following the candy placement, they would both say thank you and Happy Halloween!

Carson was sure to tell people that no, he was not spider man. In fact he was Carson, dressed up as Spider man, duh. After a few falls with the actual mask on (yes I did cut the eye holes bigger) we decided to just take it off. It was hazardous.

Bee's

So, if you know me, you'll know I'm sort of afraid of bee's. I've never been stung so I think it is the anticipation of getting stung that scares me. I loose control when I see a bee (which is embarrassing, but un controllable!!)

So, this morning after some time spent in the bathroom, I went to go find my purse which has my zofran in it. I picked it up and put it under my arm and ZAP I got a huge pain on my arm near my arm pit. I was sure I had been bitten by a black widow or some other deadly spider and sat the purse down to inspect my arm. I saw a red mark and some swelling and looked down at my purse and there was a BEE walking around on it. A bee! On a wintry Friday morning in my purse in the house, a bee.

I don't know if I will react the same way when I see a bee flying around outside because now I am convinced they are maniacal little devil's who prey on unsuspecting pregnant women who they know will over react if stung.

Rude!

Yesterday was a traumatic day in our house. Olivia found scissors and got a liiiiitle cut happy and decided to cut her bangs off and then she took the scissors to Carson's head.

Here is the result:


Yes, that is her forehead, where she used to have bangs and some hair. Right in time for her 5th Birthday, Thanksgiving and Christmas! Oh Olivia!

UPDATE!!

Hello!

I'm doing well, I switched back to the "brand name" zofran and it has helped. I sometimes feel like I will never ever feel better and will never want to eat food again, but I know it will pass. (right?!?)

I had my first doctor's appointment and my due date is May 8th!! I saw the little being and he/she was kicking kicking shaking and moving, so active for such a little sprout. It was really sweet to see, it even sort of looked like a baby! Hooray!

I have some cute pictures and a really cute drawing Olivia did, so I will post soon. Its hard to get the energy or motivation to blog when I barely have the energy or motivation to move from the bed in the morning. I hope the 2nd trimester brings energy and cravings!!